what happen to me??

ape yg dh jd kat aku ni?semalam hari ibu..tp ape yg ak dh buat?ade kah ak bahagia mcm ni?ade kah mak bahagia mcm ni?nape ak x bole jd mcm org len?nape mak x bole jd mcm org len?its so complicated..kdg2 ak perlu kan jgk penghargaan mcm org len..tp sume nye mcm useless..mcm xde pape pon sumbangan ak ni..titik peluh ak..penat lelah ak mcm x dihargai..even ak nmpk keras n kasar tp deep into my heart so soft n sensitive..i need attention..i dont want to give everytime but didnt get anything..no give n take..but plz..do appreciate me..even ak slalu buat salah tp xkn xde 1 pon yg ak buat ni betol?dont judge me like i'm the offender all d time..plz...